Anticipation

Each day grows with mounting anxiety. How many more days is it before I'm officially training for the Singapore Armed Forces? It's only a couple of weeks. Going in on the 21st of April, heh, time sure flies. Life's been good to me, rather it is I who have a grudge against it. Whether be it because of what Life has thrown at me, or be it how it's trying to make up for past mistakes. There's certain things that I can never truly forget. And with this milestone of entering National Service, I step into the next stage of my life, where I shall emerge with a new purpose, a new meaning and a new look to serve the purpose of humanity.

Ramblings from a mind bordering on the line of sanity and understanding

Is there no escape from the basic human instinct to couple and procreate? Is there no source where we can turn to when we can break free from this endless cycle and ascend to immortality? Is the key to immortality NOT to follow human instinct? Or is there a way for us to become immortal and yet still remain human? Hahah there is already an answer to that question, and it proves that it's a question being asked for thousands of years. Buddism, the teachings of budda can be interpreted to being able to attain immortality if one attained enlightenment. It however asks us to thrown down basic human instinct, in order to attain the so called enlightenment. Why is it that buddist monks have to take the vow of celibacy? What is celibacy? It's the desecration of the basic human requirement. It's a show of sacrifice to attain a certain sort of power that seems to drive people to take this way of life.

Why do I say monks are an affront to our nature? It's because if you look at the basic organism around us, dogs, cats and all lifeforms on our planet. Their only goal is to reproduce so they may continue their species' survival on the planet. When you take a vow of celibacy, your going directly against that goal. You're willingly giving up survival of the human race. In short, if enough people feel that being a monk is important, we can see the signs of pre-extinction of the human race.

What if I told you that religion is just another form of control over people's minds? In a way, it's been proven that the monks of old, invented the Oracle to make people fear and submit to their control. And thus religion has proven to have a greater hold over humanity than anyone can ever tell. Fanatics have turned the tide of battle, a simple glimmer of hope can cause a small group to reduce a mighty empire to it's knees. The classic battle of David and Goliath shows the shining example of one such encounters. But not many of you have realized that in the end, David was old, senile and filled with sin as written in the Bible. No one is truly a hero and no one is truly a saint, for God has made us in his image and we're not perfect.

If you're thinking that in short, I'm saying God isn't perfect, then you've got what I've been trying to say. If God has Wrath, Anger, Goodness, Kindness, Mercy, Forgiveness and a WHOLE assortment of feelings. Whose not to say God isn't perfect? Even God himself has told us, "Man was made in God's image" And women are our kin. "God took a rib out of Adam and made him a companion" Thus I conclude, Men and women were once a merged organism and Women were separated from Men genetically and this design was deliberate and planned carefully. Perhaps even today it shows up in babies born with both sets of genitals. Perhaps Hermaphrodites are relics of a time long forgotten, where perhaps all human kind were like them, where there is no gender.

Haha, I'm so crazy.... too many ideas coming to me from unseeming sources of inspiration. I'm playing connect the dots with things that are never meant to be understood, yet when I see them. Hehe... perhaps I should be an Anthrapologist. Or maybe an Archeologist. I'm just interested in finding if anyone was made truly immortal, rather than artificial vampires that roam our streets forgotten in the night. For those of you Vampire fans, I'm a living breathing version of the Prophet of the Malkavians, taint of madness always present and yet never really there.

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow

So old habits die hard

Yes old habits die hard. And today I have come to realize that the oldest habit I have is putting off what I can today and leaving it for tomorrow. That is the loveliest habit of all! Who doesn't like to be lazy? Who doesn't like to able to just drop everything and have nothing to care about. Yes the ultimate form of escaping reality. Kick me someone, otherwise I don't think I'd want to leave this dreamy world of perfection.

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow