Injury!

6.19am Friday July 02 2004.... it's either really late night... or early morning... haha up to you to interpret. I've been at home for bout a week now. On MC for an injury to my right knee. To be more specific it's a ligament injury. It all happened during army training, I was asked to perform a certain task and I naturally set out to do it to the maximum of my ability. I think maybe it was because I pushed myself too hard, but I guess it would happen eventually one time or another.

Life Sucks!

But being injured sucks, it sucks so bad. I've gone into the army weighing about 106 KG.... and at the point I was injured... I weighed bout 93 kg. I would lose alot more weight if not for having to rest now because of my injury ARGH! Oh well, I'm guessing it's God's way of playing a practical joke upon my sorry ass. I worked so hard, I got so far, in the end it doesn't even matter. ARGH now I sound like linkin park!

Resting secrets

Technically speaking at the point when I was injured, I was exhausted. Perhaps I was too tired, having pushed myself to my limit and beyond. Perhaps it was my body's way of telling me, "HEY FOOL! REST OR YOUR GONNA DIE!" Perhaps so.... but I was soooo close to becoming an officer! ARGH... I hope when I recover, I'd have a 2nd chance at becoming an officer. I really believe I have a calling in my blood, to be the commander of my fellow soldiers. The greatest leaders aren't superior to their men. Infact the greatest leaders are servants to the soldiers they lead. They are meant to take care of their men and never abuse their authority they have over them. Oh well such values are so old I fear it has been lost with time. I do not see my fellow soldiers being inspired by my officers or the sergeants. They told us that the army has changed from the past, but still they are ruling our men thru Fear instead of Valor and Honor which drives many armies nowadays.

Difference between winners and losers

Singapore is so tiny, we have a land mass so small, we're the smallest country besides for Vatican City. We have only around 3.5 million population at max with the rest being tourists or non-permanent residents. It's absolutely essential that our army must be driven by men with purpose instead of half-hearted conscripts whom feel that the army is nothing but a waste of their 2 years of National Service. We must educate our nation from the roots, which are our children. We must show them that without an army, we will not be able to survive as a country. Right now, most of the attitude of my fellow recruits are one of extreme ignorance. They do not understand the importance of our lack of manpower. It means we would have to make use of every last man. And every last man must count in our efforts or as the saying goes "the chain is as strong as it's weakest link". If you were to test our army, our "chain" I'd assure you that our weakest link is very weak indeed. It doesn't matter if the whole army save one person is doing their job. Just one person who didn't do his job, will cause such a castastrophic chain of events that have the potential to unravel the work others have put in so much effort to accomplish.

I strongly believe that the only way to remedy this problem would be to become a leader myself, a leader has more power to affect those around him. Then perhaps I can slowly inspire the men I lead to in turn inspire more and more of the army. Such inspiration will slowly but surely affect the army in a positive way. Anyways... enough of my army chatter. I don't think you would enjoy me carry on another 20 pages of this crap anyways.

You never know whom you gonna meet

By the way, I met this German gal online while playing Gunbound. (Now who says you can't meet people while playing games?) And she was one of the nicest people you can chat with online. Hehehe, it's not that girls from other countries aren't nice, but on the whole, most girls whom go on the internet ain't exactly very friendly. Which is understandable if they had been swarmed with thousands of guys asking about every little detail bout their lives.... (I've had feedback from several gals that they were indeed swarmed with alot of unwanted attention) So I have the simplest solution, just say your a guy whom likes to pretend your a girl... lol... that'd get like 90% of the guys off ya back. The rest of the 10% are guys whom are Gay, Bisexual or they suspect that your really a girl and they really are straight. But hey, somehow I am a magnet for girls whom don't really know how to use computers.... and end up coaching them in every little detail on how to get things done. (I am really getting tired of that... imagine in a single day I used to have to tend to like 15 different girls with like 5 requests each) But now, since I've entered the army, things have been much better and quieter.

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Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow