Revelation

Slept at 12am, woke up at 4.30am. Felt refreshed, is there something wrong with this picture? I woke up without the help of alarm clocks or anyone to bump me out of bed. If I didn't know better, I might suspect it's my body responding to my constant oversleeping during the previous 2 months. But then again who knows that might be exactly what is happening.

Weirdness

What makes a person weird? Is it because he's Geeky or maybe he's just a Loser. Or wait, perhaps it's because your in a bad mood or your in the mood to make someone's life a living hell. Hahaha, oh well perhaps, just perhaps it's because the person's DIFFERENT. Oh yeah, just because they are different means they aren't worth your time. Just because they don't see things the way you do, means that they are FREAKS. LOL I so do enjoy this degradation of everything.... but then again whose to say it's not FREAKISH behaviour?

So let's review this, if you keep an open mind you'd be deemed an ambassator. But THAT'S ONLY if you know how to FIT IN to the different groups when opportunity rises. Otherwise your a just another FREAK whose trying to fit in. LOL.... that's pretty much it I'd say. Thus all you people out there whose trying to be unique or different, know this:"Your only an individual IF your totally free from seeking other people's opinion about you. Otherwise your gonna be just another social outcast whom no one's ever gonna remember."

Depressing ain't it? hahaha.... it's meant to be! Life's Good only if your out there doing things that make you feel good. Yeah, if helping others is your thing, then helping others is a "good" thing to do. If being a sadistic bastard appeals to you, then go ahead, the only repecussions would be your future lynching lol.... I mean to each his/her own. So what if your girlfriend doesn't love you, if your both in it for the sex and you don't care, go ahead... lol.... it's true, you'd be happier that way, rather than trying to work out your differences and have a "proper" relationship. Only Hell knows how many have tried and failed.

But then again such a philosophy can only get you so far. Then you'd start to get bored, the so called "dreams" and happiness comes all too easily. ("Remember you'd only be happy if you LET yourself be") Then because of the sadistic twist in human nature, you'd start to feel a vacuumed Void within your heart. And then you'd realize that the good things in life ain't what it's cut out to be, UNLESS you've gone thru HELL and back to get there. Yes, a bitter journey makes the fruit twice as sweet. Love lost and found again is said to have no equal. This delusional frenzy is what the human spirit THRIVES on. There is NO HUMAN ALIVE that will not feel this way. So what if your the leader of the biggest and most powerful country in the world? If you never earned that position with blood and sweat, you'd never savour the moment you step up to that position.

The greatest heroes of the past have always longed for something they could never have. A peaceful and mundane life filled with the simple pleasures. Whereas the peasant folk has always envied the heroes and the recognition they would get. Lol such is the fate of all human kind. Maybe except Budda, he lived a life of luxury when he was young, then lived a life filled with misery during his youth. After that he realized that to taste life fully, was to live the "middle" way. What's this elusive middle way? Well it's actually kinda hard to explain, perhaps the simplest way I can put it, is to say that when you eat, don't eat until your full but eat until your just not hungry. That in essense would be the middle way. LOL Heck if I follow that way, I KNOW about it, well that doesn't mean I have to abide by it's rules now do I?

Greatest Sin a man could have, is perhaps Ignorance. But what happens when a man purposefully commits a sin? Then he's enlightened... lol... He knows that it's wrong, but then again if he knows that he doesn't commit the sin, he will be tormented internally which could be worse than hell itself, so he commits the sin, fully aware of what's going to happen to him. God does not forgive the ignorant and he may punish them an additional 10 fold because they have refused to acknowledge the sin. May God have mercy on the ignorant for I know he'd have no mercy upon me.

Isn't it Ironic that in Heaven, people who are good are showered with gifts and a comfortable life, while on earth they must not be seeking material comfort? But yet in Hell, people suffer for all of eternity because their evil? Wait a min, revelation, that would mean Heaven and Hell would essentially be the same place. Because if you look at it. Heaven and hell should be opposed to each other. The good is rewarded in heaven and to maintain a balance, evil should also be rewarded in hell. Otherwise there'd be no balance. Thus what I think is heaven and hell, perhaps is this. People who has done good deeds whist they were alive were rewarded with God's Blessing and people who has done evil deeds are visited by God's wraith. Essentially Devils are so called "Fallen Angels" lol..... and if in hell you suffer for eternity, would mean that the so called Devils are merely carrying out God's orders. That would mean they were merely assigned to Hell and given a makeover... hehehe...

I do not think I'm the only person who has come up with this point of view and I do not think I'd be the last either. But I do believe one thing, religion has ruled the human race for more than 10 thousand years. It will not be so easy to change that fact in the near future. If you do not fear the religion, fear the fanatics that worship it.

I am a naturally god fearing man but I also feel a duty to educate the people I know with knowledge granted to me by the grace of the Lord Almighty. I know this is God's will only because he has granted me the knowledge I now speak.

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow

Holy SHIT! And I didn't know shit could be holy

Slept at 7am today, woke up 11.45am today.
More awake than I've ever been.
Like WHAT IN THE WORLD?!
Perhaps this is the way my body's telling me, it's time to do something.
Hahaha, eh I think I will do something.
Gonna try and do all the stuff I've been putting off. Maybe alittle workout wouldn't hurt either.
Anyways, GLAD to be up while the rest of the country is more or less awake.
Wouldn't be surprised that most sleepy heads still in dreamland during lunch time ;P

This is an ASS, signing to pass off as an ASSHOLE!

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow

Another Nightly entry

Hmmm, it's the 4th post already, I guess I might be getting used to this way of putting down my thoughts. Whether be it for the better or worse, I guess only time will tell. Perhaps I've been alittle too straightforward in my previous posts, I think perhaps for the next few posts, I'm gonna be alittle more cryptic and confusing. After all, what good is a readable blog when you don't want other to read you like a book.

So riddles speak shall we

Hourly wanderings, nightly existence.
Hunger overwhelms and food suffice.
Losing oneself in delightful gambles,
Realizing potential left ungained.

Rivers of blood, tears of hate,
Torrent of feeling, Bringer of Fate.
Reveal me not, so if you do,
Consider me humbled, for you I'm blue.

Passions of anger, fists of abadement.
Pacifistic reasoning, unreasonable doubt.
Reasons for hating, reasons for naught,
Loving you, my reasons are caught.

Consider me foolish, consider me bought.
By the world around me, the limits are wrought.
Breaking of rules, always led to humiliation,
Yet keeping of them, does me no good.

Understand and your enlightened,
But if naught, dumb your not.
The soul seeks release, the body falters,
Loving the life, this one now alters.

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow

Cautious precaution

Well, I really hoped no one read my first Blog attempt. But from response from my friends, it seemed there was an unhealthy interest in my matters. I had hoped that more than 1 week of waiting would put them off my ever elusive "self exposé". Really don't like it when people think my blog was funny or dark or even interesting. What I want was just somewhere for me to write down my innermost thoughts without people ever finding out what I thought or felt. But then again idiosyncrasy seems to be on the menu of the day.

What does it mean to be human?

Question: What does it mean to be human, more specifically, what makes us tick?

Answer: Who the fuck cares? But hey I'm just gonna share it anyways. Here's some insight from a guy who watched too much TV and read too much concerning issues like these.

Insight

First things first. What does it mean to be human? There has been so many definitions around the world regarding what it is to be human. Be it to have emotions, to control emotions, human instinct, human behaviour, psychology, etc, etc. The list is endless and also very contradictory.

One side tries to explain that humans are just another species of animals, where our habits emulate much of the animal kingdom. Sayings such as being the "Alpha Wolf" who is the starter of a trend or visionary of an empire, taking the role of the lesser known "Beta Wolf" who maintains and upkeeps a dynasty of the trend or empire are just inferences to our much more animalistic side. Yet though accurate in most accounts, this explaination of humans doesn't quite satisfy the majority of the educated. People who feel they are higher up in society always come up with reasons or explainations on how they are better than the lower echelons of society and why they should continue staying as the elite of society.

So thus comes the myriad of reasons why humans are humans. From the definitions come emotions which built a whole system upon humans grade themselves. Things such as Love, Hate, Fear, Anger led to Honour, Valor, Justic, Betrayal, Evil, Good, Mercy and the list continues. So to be human, to me, it all boils down to the word humanity. Yes a word derived from human is what I believe in. Humanity would be the cumulation of all I've said above and others that would be said in the future. Our humanity includes all our triumphs and failures, for To err is human, that is the basis of all humankind.

Women ruled over men?

Within the last week, I've watched much documentaries, news broadcasts, soap operas, mtv videos, business secrets. And also read a Diablo novel, played couple of MMORPGs and standard single player computer games. Not to mention find out my uncle got into a car accident and he's currently in hospital.

Among one of the more interesting documentaries, was one that tried to explain stonehedge and other monolithtic monuments of similar origins. In the documentary, they tried explaining that in the past where at the end of the ice age, humans weren't humans yet. But rather they were a species called homo erectus ("Guys out there please don't make this into another sex joke, we have enough already")

The Ice Age

The homo erectus were one of the survivors of the ice age, during the ice age humans were living much like elephants. Yes you heard me elephants, if you don't know how elephant communities were like here's a short introduction. Elephants live in an all female society, where the oldest female in the herd would be the "Matriarch" the only males in the herd would be young males who has not reached maturity. Then when the males reach maturity, they are kicked out by the herd and only allowed back during the mating period. But, humans during the ice age weren't all female societies but rather they were ruled by the females in the tribe.

Why, now it gets alittle more interesting, you see, during the ice age, there weren't any plants readily available for humans to eat. Thus humans resorted to hunting huge animals such as mammoths for their survival. Yes you heard me right, humans were living on a pure animal diet. Don't look surprised, people WON'T die because they have an all meat diet, you don't see killer whales eating seaweed now do you or even cheetahs grazing for that matter. So as humans needed to hunt, the males were the physically stronger of the two sexes and so he's more adept and more likely to be out hunting while the women stay at the tribe. Now wouldn't you be BORED if you had to stay back and wait hours upon hours for food? So thus the role of culture, child bearing, society had fallen to the hands of the women. The women would be like Queens and could influence important decisions within a tribe.

With all that done and said, what in the world would that be connected with the stonehedge and other monolithtic monuments? There's more you gotta know before the picture came clear. Firstly you already know that humans were dominated by women and men had to go out hunting. What you might not know would be that humans had to hunt at night. Yes, predators almost always hunt at night so that their prey is sleepy and easier to capture. Thus because humans back in the ice age were nocturnal animals, ("All you night owls out there rejoice! It's primal human instinct to stay up at night.")

Religions began forming around the moon. The moon would be considered very important to the humans as it determined whether or not they would have enough light to hunt. Thus many rituals formed around full moons and moonless nights. The moon also determined the female menstrual cycle and thus many women laid claim upon being Priestesses and Leaders to their people. All the male hunters would seek the counsel of their female leader before attempting a hunting expedition. There's also an issue of when there's not enough moon light to conduct hunts, then the females would allow mating within the tribe. ("Kinky huh? hahaha...")

Religion

So now you know there's many religions which are considered "PAGAN" now ("Pagan meaning taboo or forbidden") which originated from human culture way back to the period of the Ice Age. Why are these pagan worships considered taboo now? Well mainly because with several rituals, it's customary to have animalistic orgies and extreme cases sacrifices of people to be made.("DO NOT ASK ME HOW I GET SOME OF THE INFORMATION I DO.") Thus people in the Ice Age flourished and the moon became a tool for women to hold power over men.

Then came the end of the Ice Age. The big animals of the age slowly disappeared and humans had nothing to eat. Eventually people found out about growing food. ("This was thru thousands of years of trial and error") And thus they had to be awake in the day instead of the night, this causes much fear in the humans of the Ice Age. One of the worries would be the loss of their culture which might have existed for thousands of years. Eventually opposing religions of people worshipping the sun and people worshipping the moon came to a cresendo. Society was slowly changing from a female dominant to a male dominant. Thus through this period of animosity and strive, came the scholars of the time. ("Yes there were smart people back in the past, do not think all our ancestors were retards")

Do not be surprised as there was knowledge back then which are still used today. Anyways these scholars would be the decendants of the "Priestesses" back during the time of the Ice Age. They knew the cycles of the moon and thru time, they also knew the cycle of the sun. During the early times after the Ice Age, the "Priests" knew that if they could get the support of BOTH the Moon worshippers and the Sun worshippers, they would be more powerful than just garnering the support of one.

Thus the idea of uniting the human race was conceived to show both sun and moon worshippers that they "Controlled" both the Sun and the Moon. The idea of Stone Hedge was formed. Stone Hedge had a center hole when you look thru it from the "Viewing stone" You'd see that it's split into 2 "Windows" These two windows were one on top of the other. The higher window would catch the moon as it decends on a monthly cycle and the sun would be caught in the bottom window in every 18.6 years. Thus the "Priests" would show the public that during that time, the sun and the moon were one and the same and they ruled the humans with knowledge of the sun and the moon.

So what did I learn in the end?

Thus lesson learnt, what is happening today through out the world with people having sleeping disorders is not a phenomenon but rather a repeat of history. We sometimes find a calling deep into our souls from a distant and forgotten past. Where night was day and day was night. Where women ruled and men worked. Perhaps those legends of Amazons weren't so unbelievable after all huh?

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow