The Future Awaits!

Time Lapse
And suddenly time warps and I'm suddenly standing at the end of the tunnel we call National Service. What have I done? The things I've been thru, the experiences I've garnered. With the blink of a mind's eye I've come 2 years into the future and it seems I've gained immensely without working for it. But that is just a matter of perception.

Requiem
Is it so strange that my life has opened up and the possibilities became endless? My life starts flashing infront of my eyes as it has all these waking years. I think it's time I told the world or at least my friends whom has been waiting for me to confess to certain things. I have visions. Yeah, nothing really great, just visions from the not too distant future. How do I know this? I've had the past 19 years to prove my findings.

Reckoning
So what about visions? Where and when do they occur to a person? I believe only God has the answer to that question. And yes, despite of seemingly anti-christ standing. I'm actually a devout believer of God. I believe that there's a God but what I do not believe in is Religion. If man needs to worship God, I do it personally. I respect him in all sense of the word, I do not however, taint his glory with the words of Man. Heh, shocking I know.

Visions
Back to visions, what kind of visions? Well, I have visions of myself doing something in the future and usually I'm from my point of view. There are occassions however, that has great significance to me and I may have visions from another point of view. However, I only have visions of events that affected me emotionally in someway. So world events and local news that don't catch my attention, won't show up in my visions. So what have I seen so far? Well just a few glimpses of my so called "gift" which I consider more of a curse than a blessing.

Glimpses
Of great significance to me, are usually deaths of my relatives. Especially graphic are my images, where I see the scene of death replayed thru my mind. It's so damn real that I am so shaken when I wake up that I usually go into a bout of insomnia for a couple of weeks or even months. And like during my time in my Polytechnic days, where I had like 6 deaths, 4 relatives and 2 of my good friend's childhood friends, in the course of 2 years. It affected me in a way that can only reflect upon my change of personality. From a person whom had 100% attendance, to a person who locked himself at home except to go for Judo which kinda calms my inner self.

Minor things
And of the other visions? The ones that doesn't change lives? I can only say, I saw myself doing many small things before I've done them. But never things I've not decided to do. It's like, if at the time I was to make a decision, my decision would only go as far as the point I'm making the decision, never after. And of the matters I've already made up my mind. I see them in the full detail. Things like my first Video game console, my first Toy, my first kiss and yes even my first time hahaha. Things I've seen before they happen are so clear, that sometimes I carry a sort of aggrogance in life. Because I know how some of the things are going to happen.

Future clouded
But for now, I only see small things happening around me. Why? Because my life's at a huge turning point. With the future undecided, my limited abilities can only go with the flow and show me the little things like happy, sad conversations with my camp mates on the bus.

The Crunch
And the time has come. Where I have to decide on the path for which I am going to walk for the rest of my life. With all the choices bombarding me. Visions of all the possible futures. Promises of a life out of the ordinary. It is time I made the choice. Should I fade away quietly and live a long and happy but quiet life? Should I be the shooting star that shines so brightly that I leave a mark in history? Should I take the path of balance that is so precarious and uncertain where my "gift" be totally wasted because of the many decisions I'd be forced to make? The time draws closer, so close I can feel it in my soul.

Closure
Time is slowly regaining it's importance in my life, where I once had disregard for the greatest enemy and friend of mankind, now I have new found focus and the understanding that time is indeed my companion more than anything in the world. Closer to me than I would care to admit, it moves along freely with my mind. Caressing my mind as it flows gently tugging, urging me to follow it to where it may lead. Haha, what have I become? A monster most surely, but also a man who knows time is the truest love one has created for himself. So long for now, I leave you with but a taste of my new found love.

Time
Jittery, watery, clattering.
Flittering, flapping, focused.
Aged, Real, Start and End.
Fast, Slow, Still and Impossible.

Idiots of today, Geniuses of tomorrow